Girl Talk Discussion only today. Wasted Times. Sometimes when you're in a relationship you feel as if nothing got accomplished when it ended. Check out this weeks episode where I explain why you may feel that way. Check the blog post http://www.kaylagotthe411.com/2018/08/wasted-times.html
You had a long day. You come home, take a shower, eat and need something relaxing to put you to sleep. You may have a few sex toys to help you have a orgasm or you may be old school and use your fingers. Once you cum, you fall right asleep. That is very common amongst many women. Not just single women.
One of the best ways to understand your body is by getting to know your body. Its yours, you're stuck with it. As you get familiar with your body you may start enjoying your body and building self confidence.
Every women masturbates for different reasons and some choose to not do so. You may be stressed. Single. Not sexually satisfied with your partner, or just damn right freaky. There is nothing wrong with touching your own body. This is a topic that many women feel embarrassed to talk about. I never really understood why until I spoke to a few women who don't. They said they felt uncomfortable or embarrassed even though they were by themselves. The thought of engaging in sexual activity without a man was creepy one said.
I started using vibrators as a teen. It did help relieve sexual frustration without going out releasing it with every boy in the town. Most young girls are curious about sex, and studies show most women masturbate before the age of 18. Its safe and healthy as long as it doesn't consume your life.
Many couples bring sex toys, or use porn to spice things up. Then you have a few women who say their men hate the idea of sex toys. One woman I spoke to says she comes home on her lunch break and uses hers while the boyfriend is at work. Do you think some men feel threatened by sex toys possible pleasing you better? I sometimes think that the idea of you getting a orgasm without, makes some men furious. If this is your case, let your man know why you do it. Maybe try to let him use it on you. Him walking in on you masturbating may be a shock.
The real reason why women masturbate is because it just feels good. It doesn't take anything away from a man. Many if us do it because we truly enjoy it. Nothing is wrong with you if you are arouse yourself.
We all are unique in our own way. We look different, we talk different, and most importantly we love different. We all have our own way of expressing love and receiving love.When you share deep intimacy, passion, and commitment with someone, love develops. If you have experienced love you know it's a beautiful feeling, but sometimes not a good feeling if you can't express love. I had to learn my love language and learned how to pay attention to others love languages.
You can't fully love a person if you don't understand what their heart needs.
Singer and song writer Kehlani has a song titled "Love Language". In the song she starts off singing
"A lot of ways to love you
Teach me through your eyes
What is needed for you?"
Check out the 5 love languages from Gary Chapman's book published in the 90s. This book has sold more than 10 million copies. I got this book off Amazon and it was such a learning experience. Learning how you love and accept love could help improve the passion in your current or future relationships, even the ones non romantic.
Words of Affirmation
This language is all about voicing your love to the person. This is actually my love language. Telling me how you feel about me, and saying heartfelt things is the key to my heart along with the next love language on the list. Those small compliments you think are nothing means a lot to a person who has this love language. But remember people with this love language may start to feel insecure. They always need validation on where they stand in your life.
Acts of Service
We all have heard the saying,
This love language means exactly that. Don't just say you love me, prove it. This love language requires effort. This is the main love language people struggle with accomplishing. Your partner hears your words of affirmation, but your actions are not showing that. They have to see your kindness, and commitment to accept your love.
Receiving Gift I hear alot on how this next love language is materialistic. This love language is fine if that person has other love languages they need. This love language means gifting that person. You can take your girl car to get new tires. Or you can cook your guy dinner. This person wants something ssomething from you to know you still care.
Quality Time
People with this love language enjoy your company. Time together they want not interruptions. So leave your phone in your purse, or pocket. With social media, people with this love language have a hard time getting through to their partner. Understand they are not being selfish. If that person is not getting your attention their minds start to wonder. Engage more with these type of people.
Physical Touch
Last love language on the list involves physical affection. This doesn't involve just sex. People with this love language loves your kisses, and hugs. You may have a partner who holds you like a hostage at night. They feel love through touch. So those love hugs means alot.
I am one of those people who can easily read people. I see the good and bad in others very well. I am very intuitive. I can sense a lot about people sometimes by just observing and watching them interact with others. That can sometimes come off as judgmental. People confuse being intuitive with actually being judgmental. If you rush to a negative conclusion about someone without actually talking to them and learning about them, you're judgmental. Many people are so critical of others and not themselves.
I can also read myself very well and study my own past behavior. The moment I became a woman was when I opened up to myself. Sometimes we are closed minded to ourselves because we are scared to know the real us. When you learn about who you're, it will help you handle situations better. You evolve by self reflecting.
One of the things I recently learned about myself was about my relationships. I am very spiritual, more than I am religious. If you don't understand what I mean, after this post go check out this article.
I go to spiritual advisers about certain aspects of my life. One told me "Kayla you can't make people do and feel how you want them to feel." I remember reading their response back and thinking, wow that was harsh! In reality I had to reflect and see the true meaning of that observation. Sometimes I tend to feel like a person should be obligated to treat me a certain way because I decided to treat them that way. Even with my communication. I am upfront, a bold communicator. I tend to judge others communication skills, if its not like mines. I have been looking for the perfect guy who does things like myself. Instead of the right guy for me and learning to understand his way of doing things. Next,
I self sabotage my own relationships. This is a brave statement. I even heard Iggy Azalea admit this about herself:
Every relationship I have ever had, has ended because of me. I tend to look for things that aren't there. I will lurk for things until I find something on a guy. Its like I'm scared of the possibility of getting hurt, so I find something bad in others to give me a excuse to leave before they actually do hurt me. I know that's deep, but its a self reflecting moment for me and its my biggest flaw. I really had to look at this certain situation I am in now. His indecisiveness scares me so bad I found myself picking him apart to friends about little things. It's like I was trying to find small bad traits to overshadow the good guy he is. I really had to check myself before I ruined the chance to see what could happen between us.
Even being in denial about liking him. I ended up calling him and getting a service not reachable message and go so worried about him since he was traveling for work. Part of this problem is trust, yes I know.
We all have to self reflect on our past decisions and ways to understand who we are and why we react the way we do. Its all apart of self improving as a individual. You have to notice your amazing qualities but also be real enough to see your flaws, understand them and work on them. You can't always just self reflect and not work on your inner you. Some things near improvement because it's effecting your own life in a negative way. Once you actually look in the mirror and see who you are and get to know you, your life will change. You will be able to take control of your life because you now know the person you have to spend everyday with, yourself?
You may hear people jokingly say "I got trust issues". Normally when I say it people never really take it serious until a incident happens. Any of you who struggle with trust may know the feeling of always being anxious. Or always feeling like somebody is trying to hurt you. Our natural instinct is to protect ourselves.
Then you have those people who are in denial. They don't believe they have trust issues but they can never fully give a person their all, or in fear of being taken advantage of. Here are some serious signs of trust issues.
You always assume someone is out to hurt you, or get you. No matter what they do. You have negative thoughts in your mind about them. Even without them actually betraying you.
You are overly protective. Every good thing in your life, you self sabotage it, out of fear of getting hurt.
You distance yourself from getting to know people. The easiest way you avoid getting hurt is staying to yourself.
You don't easily forgive. Once a person crosses you, they are done for life. Even if you are unsure you still cut them off just to make sure.
You look for the bad. People with trust issues always seem to look for the bad before it begins. It's a way to stop the bad from happening before it begins.
People who don't struggle with trust never fully can understand a person with trust issues. You can feel sometimes hurt by being judged or misunderstood for your actions. Betrayal is a life damaging thing, especially when its done by a spouse, friend or family member. That deep hurt follows you and never seems to leave. Your mission is to never allow anyone to hurt you again. Its like constantly walking around with a bullet proof vest on your heart.
My trust issues run deep going back to my child hood. Having everyone around me constantly lie to me. Then it lead into toxic relationships. Where men lied so much, then tried to cover the lies up. I would fall for the lies all over again. I remember spending 4 years with a guy who lied so much about his cheating. I was so dumb I would actually believe that those girls who wrote me saying "he my man" were actually lying and trying to break us up...
I recall on our 4th year this one particular girl came into the picture.
You can read more about this situation here:karma-is-btch .
I kept asking him was he messing with her. He denied it. I remember crying to him and he literally looked me in my eyes and said she was lying. I remember I told the girl send me proof, because I don't believe you. I woke up with a message from her. She sent me a picture of her sitting on his lap at his sister house in her living room. Yes y'all, a picture of them together.
I called him right after going the hell off. I remember balling in tears, and he still was denying it. His entire family had even lied to me when I would ask them. These people smiled in my face but knew all along. They would call me "sis". That man took all the trust I had when we broke up. Each guy I dated I would investigate them just to protect myself before catching feelings. Soon as I found something questionable I would end it. Then I went though a stage not even dating for a while. It was my way of trying to avoid possible getting hurt again. All the signs of, TRUST ISSUES!
People who have trust issues normally ruin good opportunities out of fear. Getting over this is not easy. I still struggle with it, but I am learning that you have to find someone worthy and can prove that everyone is not the same. To conquer those trust issues you will need a strong support system. Trust means putting confidence into someone or something. Also building self esteem in yourself can help overcome this. Most of all having confidence in yourself. Take all those bad situations and trust your instincts. We know the signs now, let's make better decisions on who we allow in our life. I'm not saying we will never possibly get hurt again,just be fearless and take a risk in order to find out.
